4 DPO - 14th May 2010

This is my lowest day so far, I have been up so much in the night with the pain. A new lady is due to go down to theatre this morning for a hip replacement. She has already had several other similar surgeries. I begin to worry that maybe mine hasn't worked and I will be back in here in the future too. Maybe that is why I am so much pain still?

When the physio arrives we talk about my going home - it won't be until next week and only if I can walk to and from the bathroom unaided several times in a day. I am happy this is the goal. Although I am disappointed that I also have to sit in a chair for 3 hours to make sure that I can cope with the journey home. It appears the hospital are not going to offer me transport home as previously suggested.

I also still have my catheter firmly in place and attached to my walking frame - which I can now use to get from bed to chair. I ask every nurse today if they can remove it and the answer is always later.

This afternoons checks show I have a temperature and low blood pressure. It has always been fairly low but it seems to have dropped a bit today. The doctor comes and tells me they hope its just because I am getting used to moving after being still for so long and nothing more serious.

This evening I feel a little better, the sun setting has turned the sky a beautiful red and the view over London actually looks quite nice this evening maybe that's just all the morphine?